Too Thick: Alexa

6 out of 7 days, I am totally in love with my body and myself. There are those days where I wish I was thinner or maybe wasn't so curvy. There are some days where comfortable is an understatement. Sometimes it's difficult to feel like I look good when things don't fit me the way I wish they would. But then I'll just shake it off. I don't dwell on negative feelings about myself. I focus on what matters more. It's been a long way here, to this kind of self acceptance. I know what it's like to not want to love yourself because you feel so uncomfortable in your own skin. But I also know how worth it is to conquer those feelings and decide to love yourself and to decide to be comfortable. I know how worth it is to be able to look at yourself in the mirror and look at yourself with pride instead of shame. 

At the risk of sounding totally cliche, I think all women are unique. I don't think there's a perfect woman. I believe we all have a concept in our head of what an ideal woman is. So as far as looking different goes, yeah I feel I look differently solely because every woman is different. I can appreciate another woman's beauty without feeling insecure about mine. I can believe a woman is more attractive then me and still be confident about myself. 

Not too long ago I got called a fucking whale by this boy who had never seen me in person. It was the first insult to actually have an affect on me in a very long time. I don't know why this stranger would feel so entitled to my attention that when I did not give it to him he reacted like a child throwing a tantrum. He called me a name and insulted my body. The same body that caught his interest in the first place. So it didn't bother me in the way that I felt bad about myself but it bothered me in the way that he felt comfortable attacking me like that. I don't care what people think about my body. It's MY body. I've been called fat since 7th grade when I developed. It's not a word that holds any weight(Pun intended). I'm a thick woman and I'm okay with that. There isn't anything that anyone can say that will prevent me from loving myself.